I'm the biggest loser in the world. why?, because I'm the one who hate lose so much. but when I lose, I just can hate myself and feel so disappoint. my friend ever told me something like this ; you can be a mature girl if you trying, just try to go out from your house and try to talking with you neighborhood.(I'm a really really talkative girl if you wanna know). then I replied ; thank you for your attention to me, but I just wanna ask something to you, did you know about the safety bounds?, did you know about something like "dilemma"?, If I dont have a mistake, someone who knows about these things, wont say something that you like. maybe its not have a connection with the first sentence. but I just wanna say, that I'm not okay with my condition, I so hate myself when I feel something like lose, but I know why I dont try to regain my strength and get up. ooh I just dont know what I said.